In need of motivation...

SALAM...
its past 1.00 am..

usually i would have been sleeping by 12...

I just could not sleep tonight.. there are too many things in my mind..

even tough I recite the doa before sleeping.. I still can't sleep.. uhu

usually the second I lend my head on the pillow I would just be dreaming away..

perhaps the coffee I made earlier have a strong impact on me tonight..

as I couldn't sleep I grab my laptop on the desk and put it on my lap to write something in this infamous and quiet blog of mine..

I still don't know what the title of this post will be..  +_+ always struggle to decide on the post title.. hais  =_=

I've got class at 9 am later.. and a full lectures until 5.15 pm.. I better not sleep in class again.. uhu usually by the end of the day.. especially in the last lecture.. I would "automatically" dozed off.. I just couldn't help it.. Besides, Wednesday has always been a tiring day for me. +_+

Anyway.. today was an odd day for me. I went to placement as usual and trying to encourage my self to have confidence with the skills I have,.. but somehow I realized that my confident level was reduced over time.. uhu and it make me feel really frustrated. I miss being my old self like I used to become before.. before, I was able to express my ideas and  was not shy to actually convey my thought to others.. but today

every time my clinician told me to report something.. I become nervous... my words and sentences were all jumbled up.. not to mention my grammar... gosh... it was all over the place.. =( it was too embarrassing.. its the same as writing reports, it was just so unorganized especially if you are a speech and language student..

you would be aspect to have no difficulties in writing reports.. and your grammatical should be flawless... deep inside I know I could have done better.. I mean i have done it before.. but I guess my mind wasn't at the place............ thus I was rather unmotivated today... but I know being unmotivated wouldn't change anything.. thus I was lying on the bed,, I was thinking how to actually improve my self.. practice make perfect right??

Oh Allah.. please let my heart be at ease..

I hope my actions and steps would always be in a right path guided by Your nur..

amin..

I have a lots of stuff to do for nextweek placement, thus I hope I can do better next week,, InsyaAllah..

Iffah!! aja-aja Fighting!!!!!

suddenly I remember a song that I used to sing in the MAP sessions with Tengku Asmadi when I went to the MAP camp for PMR.. hehe

terjumpe multi-marketing CNI lak.. hehe tpi x pela..the lyrics still can bring up ur spirits...

Jika kau fikirkan kau boleh, kau hampir boleh melakukan,

Jika kau fikirkan ragu-ragu, usahamu tidak menentu,

Jika kau fikirkan kekalahan, kau hampiri kegagalan,

Jika kau fikirkan kemenangan, kau hampiri kejayaan,

Engkaulah apa yang kau fikirkan, terkandung dalam pemikiran,

Berfikir boleh melakukan, fikirkan boleh,

Percaya apa kau lakukan, tabah apa kau usahakan,

Bertindak atas kemampuan, kau boleh………..

ok la.. Its time for me to give another try to actually sleep now..

mudah-mudahan segala urusan dipermudahkan olehNYA....

ameen.

Goodnight and sweet dream...

wassalam